Religions not so bad, it's helped a lot with my cancer fight, annoys me because I had two oncologists assure me it wasn't cancer, but it was just being masked by immunosuppressants.
It's all whatever in the end, get yourself medical checked out make sure your depression isn't physiological, I had multiple doctors try to convince me to spend time at the psychiatrics hospital instead of pushing to investigate into my health further, I knew my depression came from my pain, my pain wasn't a normal type of pain I experienced most of my life, I knew something was wrong but doctor's and people don't like being told what to do.